It’s been so difficult for me, everything, these past nine months and sometimes I can’t begin to comprehend the state of my being, my situational position, my Entire existence. I mean, I have trouble acknowledging and accepting the True reality of my being Now.
I came back from a bike ride nine months ago and the entirety of my world instantly altered and the ground under my feet shifted and opened up and swallowed me whole and proceeded to vomit me back out into an existence I hardly recognize. I mean, how does one say “goodbye” to their lover, go for a less than 2 hour ride and return to an empty home? It nearly killed me…it nearly takes my breath away every morning when I wake because for a split second, a minuscule moment of time, I forget the way things are (Now) and remember (and for a moment live in) A life And world that no longer exists.
I’m trying so desperately to create a new place in time and space for me and my furry friends now….but sometimes all I can do is bury my head in my pillow and hide away under my blankets and cry my day away because I’m not so very strong and crying seems to come so easily to me; I just wish the pain and sadness would forget itself to me.
Losing Daniel hurts; it still hurts in so many ways.
theaflys 
You are very strong. Our higher power teaches us all of life’s lessons and some of these lessons we feel are unfair. You are stronger than you think you are. You have a good mind and a good soul. You spread comfort and peace. You are a leader. Enjoy what you had in the past and always remember the good for you are now to share that good. Bless your heart and good and positive things to come. Remember you are strong..
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Thank you, Robert, for the words of encouragement, truly.
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My Dearest friend, beautiful adopted sister, I wish I can take away your pain. I will continue to keep you in my thoughts and prayers as you make your way through this. I love you. Big hugs of comfort and peace till I see you again.
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I love you too and you give me so much strength; you always have
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There is not much I can say to bring you comfort. While he is not with you in the physical world, he is watching after you, along wit GOD & his angels. You will meet again in the Heavenly realm. I share in your sadness. At work we lost an excellent boss, human being & friend. When I walk by the office where he use to sit with his left over lunch I think of you & how much he is missed. He will never be forgotten.
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Thank you, immensely.
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